Or so I am told, I was never one to really keep a diary, I bought them, I got them given to me, but did I ever write in them? No!
OK, well, a certain lady has inspired me to make use of this system, not by her word but that she does one herself and I thought well, if she's funny maybe I will be? Perhaps not, we will see.
I have decided to do it also to keep me sane, is that possible? or is insanity something you just blog about? Either way, my secrets will no doubt come out and by the end of the year I will be cringing like the rest of the Blogging Fools who get drunk and put their whole sex life, mistakes and other embarrassing events on here, so you should be in for a treat.
So, its the night before my birthday and I should be celebrating. Unfortunately, as with much of England, Wales and particularly Scotland we are in the grip of being snowbound. In fact J and I have been stuck here since before Christmas, hence now I am bored and blogging seems a good idea.
The poor animals are on rations now water wise as we are melting snow to give them water, and we are living in one room in order to preserve heat, but ce la vei, if that is how it is spelled, I am sure we will survive.
I have reached the grand old age of 44 (tomorrow, still 43 for half hour), looking past, my life has been a checkered board of ups and downs; this is where the depression comes in btw so those fearful of depressives look away now.
This year I have decided it will be a year of truths. Ohh yeserrrreeee... Things that have upset me since I was a young girl will be resolved. I need to let it out, I need to tell people what happened and it's going to be very healing for me. So be it, now how to do it?
Did I mentioned I suffer from depression? well, if you don't get what depression is, might I suggest you read up about it, its crippling in a way. It doesn't make me any less a person it just means life is difficult at times.
So, this year, I will...
Combat the depression - do whatever I need to do to make me happy.
Diet - Got a wedding to go to later in the year - tell you about that another time.
Decorate - the house needs it, and I think my spacial awareness afects my moods also.
Prefer for next Winter! EVEN NOW, even when we are snowed in, I am already thinking of next years preperations - I am NOT going through this again!
So, now I have lowered the emotional tone, I am logging off, see you on my birthday!
